Fasting – Day 4
Friday, February 15th, 2008Four days. I’ve been fasting for 4 days now. I have little energy but enough to walk around town most of the day. I can keep going. I’m fine but starting to wonder what this is all about.
I try to remember why I’m doing the fast. I have this bad habit to eat food, not because I’m hungry but for pleasure, because I love it. What’s wrong about that you may ask? The thing is, I will eat until all the food I have around me is gone. Usually not a single nut survives. I just don’t understand why I don’t feel full and stop after a certain amount of food.
So after fasting for four days, I think I understood something. Maybe I just don’t pay enough attention to how I feel while I’m eating. So tonight I decided to eat again.
I started with an apple. Then a carrot. Then I took a bag containing mixed nuts and dried fruits. I started eating them slowly, but soon I realized that half of it was gone. So I got up to get another carrot, which I think is probably better than nuts. The thing is, the fridge where the carrots are is nearby the cupboard where the peanut butter is. So before I know it, I’m dipping a carrot in peanut butter. I try really hard to feel that sensation one should get when full, but it’s not coming.
How can I get rid of the hunger by eating when I’m not hungry in the first place? So really food is a pleasure, and eating an addiction that I can’t seem to be able to get rid of. We tried to stuff ourselves, then we fasted, but none worked. What’s next? Suggestions are welcomed!
